domingo, 22 de septiembre de 2019

Hey lets talk a while

Dear blog

So these days have been horrible. A whole week without an answer to an email made  me think everyday about suicide great. Seriously been thinking a lot (and reading) don't you find it frustrating to know that your life depends on what will happen after you die? I mean we want peace but we cant thinking about the afterlife. I mean everyone says someone who commits suicide is a coward. But that coward actually went through a lot. And his only moment bravery was his final decision to pull the trigger/ jump of the bridge/make the final cut, etc.

Ugh life goes on but you dont want to wake up

martes, 17 de septiembre de 2019

Idk

Idk what I plan to do with this blog anymore. Before, I relieved my stress of school but I don't go to school anymore so I'm depressed and with lots of anxiety. Everyday I wish I could reset my life from when I was a kid and choose another school. I think this way I could have had more friends and lived a peaceful normal life. Maybe wishing to go to Japan was a mistake? They aren't responding.... I'm stressed. I want to make new friends but I don't have anyone anymore. I don't get out often so I don't know what to do. I wonder how my family is so chill about it. The only thing I do now is watch anime. I even lost my interest in gaming somehow. I lost interest in everything I loved. That's depression right? I'm doubting if I shoul study international business. I mean I don't even look good in a suit but my mother says otherwise. I want to study a simple career and discover by myself what I want to do while I'm alive but if life had to end like that I wouldn't mind at all you know.

miércoles, 31 de julio de 2019

Zero Escape series

1) 999



2) Virtue's Last Reward

 Ally or Betray?


3) Zero's Time Dillema

Decision Game.

31/07/19

Dear Diary,

I haven't been able to write to you this year. Recently I thought about erasing all my diary entries but it is interesting to read my thoughts from the beginning of the year or last year.
Ok so update.
This year I haven't been able to watch anime. The only anime that I'm still currently watching is The Rose of Versailles. My history lover self is so impressed by this anime though I wish the anime shows more romance and the difficulty of Oscar by being a man. Nevertheless, this anime really piques your interest in the French Revolution. KILL ME NOW BCSSSS I didn't watch any jojo episode, my old self is gonna be so mad at me.

Ok, so? Good news maybe? After long thinking (2 weeks to be exact), I came to the conclusion I needed to drop school If I wanted to fulfill my dream in Japan. Hopefully this is not the wrong choice. I'm worried about my mother. My social life has crumbled since that decision, I don't go out anymore and I fear that is becoming lethal for my mental health. I need to speak to the director soon maybe in 2 days. I know the bac is useful to have a career. I will graduate later because of my decision, but... I'll be happy. I'm glad. I won't be stuck with a culture which I hate. I'll tell you more about my travel. I need to learn some coding skills to not become a burden to my mother. Meanwhile, every night I study some Japanese I even get tired of it. Those times I wonder if I made the right decision. I won't go to Europe anymore. I'm worried of my physique. If I'll be able to integrate the country. I'm so thin and tiny AND kinda black (I'm latina but with no curves). So yeah... this will be difficult.

Books? Ha ha ha.... Ok so I haven't finished A SINGLE BOOK since last year. I just start them and leave them behind. I have a new book (yeah another) called Makioka Sisters by Junichirou Tanizaki. At the beginning it was pretty boring and difficult to read but now (since page 50) it has become really interesting and you really want to know more about this family.

Going back to my social life. I think I lost contact with my best friend. That's sad but... I'm starting to think she was a little toxic, but you know? I don't have more friends. What do I do now? I'm special maybe but I can't be fully honest with someone. On good news remember Nakima? She wanted to talk with me again! I think I'm kinda cold with her, but it will be weird if I just act all happy with her. Hopefully our friendship develops she is truly a kind girl (who started dating my crush lmao) but who cares about that?

Ni no Kuni II

Story: If you haven't been able to play the first game as me don't worry too much as it isn't necessary to enjoy this game at all. With a beautiful and heartwarming storytelling, Ni No Kuni II does it again, we start the game as Roland, the president of some country, who is in a car trip to go to a meeting. Suddenly an explosion blows the whole city (literally) and Roland wakes up in the world of Ni No Kuni II at the royal chamber of our young king Evan Pettiwhisker Tildrum.



Review: I played this while I was on winter vacation last year, the story is really simple but it truly melts my heart. (Like Ghibli movies lol).

Post-game: Lots of missions and trophies. You really need to grind hard in the faraway forest cave to 100% complete this game. It's a pain but worth for the platinum.

All DLC's by release date:

The Lair of the Lost Lord DLC: see the trailer
The Tale of a Timeless Tome DLC: see the trailer

In my opinion they aren't worth it. They are extremely grinding based and reveal little storyline.

domingo, 14 de julio de 2019

Venting out mid 2019

Dear diary,

All right so this is what happened...
Dropped out of school...
Don't believe it? Me neither. Are u ok? No, but I don't how to feel. You know? Because of this I discovered that ALL of my friends weren't really my friends... They were there just to pass the time... Now that I'm mentally sick? Wherw are they? I don't get it. I'm so confused. Everyday I feel miserable. How can I get out od this loop? Not even gaming makes me feel better. Maybe music. But after that? What shall I do. Help.

viernes, 7 de junio de 2019

7/06/2019

Dear diary:

I've been wasting 8 hours on my mental health ugh why am I so stupid. I don't even know why I'm sad. Is this being depressed? What do I do? I don't know? Can I just throw everything away? Can I find someone who understands me? Can I find something that I like doing every single day? I don't know... I'm just tired I guess...

martes, 28 de mayo de 2019

28/05/2019

Dear Diary:

Finally vacations! I finished FINALLY kh3 this sunday. I wanted to cry so bad over the ending but my mother was around XD.
I really wanted to be productive but... so many games to finish... so many series...
Anyways... TODAY IS PRODUCTIVE DAY. I woke up early so I will begin doing some homework.

jueves, 16 de mayo de 2019

16/05/19

Dear Diary:

Update on my life recently:

I've been thinking... I really want to become a freelancer when I grow up. Share my life with others, inspire people... that's my dream. But, don't think that I want to become like those dumb infleuncer that you find on instagram, I really want to work. I sometimes think I'm alone, I only feel I can believe on myself. Is this bad?
Sadly, If I want to move to Japan I need first have good grades and move to France. I appreciate the culture exams, I realy like them and they are a rising opportunity for me. Sorry for my babbling by the way.
*Sigh* it's way more stressing if I have good notes at first, they start to diminish... It's stressing...

Update on my books:

Recently I read Miss Peregrine's home for peculiar children: Hollow City. I'm loving this trilogy! Next is library of souls!
Sadly, I need to go to my school's library again... Meanwhile, I'm reading Sherlock Holmes, 2 chapters and I already love that man lmao.

jueves, 9 de mayo de 2019

26/04/2019

Dear Diary:

I just HAD to make an update here. Just to remember things you know? Lately I've been reading all of my entries. It's amazing how much I have forgotten. I'll tell you my summary of my 2019 until now:

Videogames?
This IS the holy year of videogames.
Kingdom Hearts III got released january 29. Nevertheless, poor me. Even if I pre-ordered it, the game arrived 2 weeks after. On january, I bought two games from the United States: Code Realize: Bouquet of Flowers and Shin Megami Tensei IV. I finally got a platinum in Code: Realize, it was so fufilling when I finished it. Nevertheless, it's been a long time since I don't play an otome game, I miss them already.
Two months ago, I bought Nier:Automata, now is one of my favorite videogames, I need a platinum here so bad. I also bought two other well-known games: The Last of Us and Devil May Cry:  HD Collection.

Books?
I read way too much. First, I asked the librarian to give me some books, the Miss Peregrine trilogy. I'm still on book 2 but I love these books.
I also bought way too many. Some of them are: Sherlock Holmes (all the main books) and 2 Agatha Christie's books.
Made some summaries of school related books (only in spanish because the books were made by hispanic authors).

Social Life?
Well... I wanted to focus on my studies and my own life so I've been straining myself from talking too much.... I don't even talk that much with my best friend anymore.

Studies?
So much stress but I'm doing alright! until now... 16...

jueves, 18 de abril de 2019

¿Quién mató a Palomino Molero? - Resumen por capitulo para que no tengas que leer el libro

Advertencia: No soy profesora de literatura, solo una estudiante que espera ayudar a los demás. No es mi culpa si te quito la experiencia de leer este libro.

INFORMACIÓN DEL LIBRO

"Escribí ¿Quién mató a Palomino Molero? por la indignación que me produjo el asesinato de un joven avionero de la base militar de Talara que quedó misteriosamente silenciado por la burocracia oficial" - Mario Vargas Llosa.

Premio Nobel de Literatura

RESUMEN DETALLADO:

_Esta historia transcurre alrededor de los años 70: dictadura en Perú_

CAP I
Lituma (un guardia y narrador de la novela) y el churre descubren un cadáver colgado de un algarrobo y piden a un taxista llamado Don Jerónimo (el único taxista de Talara, en la costa norte de Perú) que se lo lleve (pero al final no puede hasta el reconocimiento del cuerpo), este último identifica al cadáver: "un piurano que cantaba boleros".

CAP II
Se averigua la identidad del cadáver: Palomino Molero, un cantante tan bueno que podía hasta cantar en Radio Piura. Conocemos a los amigos de Lituma: León, José, el Mono y Josefino que se encuentran tomando en el Bar Chunga (Chunga es el nombre de la dueña) asimismo a su colega el treniente Silva.
Lituma visita a la madre de Molero, y le informa que fue al servicio militar (para ser aviador en la Base Aérea) como voluntario a pesar de ser exceptuado (por ser hijo único de viuda). Su madre exige su guitarra, instrumento que insistió que se lo llevara a pesar que Palomino se negara. En la ciudad se empieza a rumorear que los de la Guardia Civil no hacían nada porque los responsables eran los "peces gordos" (ricos).

Pista n°1:  Palomino iba a la base para dar serenatas a su interés romántico porque vivía por ahí. Proablemente Molero fue asesinado por meterse con una señora casada.

CAP III
Doña Adriana (interés romántico de Silva) se encuentra casada con el pesquiero Matías Querecotillo. Se queja del coronel Mindreau (de la base aérea que no permite las entrevistas a los compañeros de Molero), de los policías. Se accentua el esparcimiento del rumor de los peces gordos (corrupción).

Pista n°2: Lituma y Silva visitan a Mindreau que no les da mucha información pero se muestra nervioso ante la petición de las entrevistas. Se deduce que esta implicado en el crimen.

CAP IV
Este capítulo nos muestra un poco la vida nocturna en Perú. Una "polilla" (prostituta) llamada la Loba Marina va a la comisaría para quejarse que su "macró (proxeneta) le daba más palizas que de costumbre". La razón? Un teniente de la Base llamado Dufó  que se emborrachaba y se volvia loco en el bulín (palabra para denominar el prostíbulo/burdel en el Perú) del Chino Liau (orinaba a la gente, buscaba peleas...). Lituma y Silva deciden darle una visita con la esperanza de sacarle información sobre el crimen. Silva lo logra, aprovechando que esta borracho.

Pista n°3: Dufó le dice que Molero se metió en donde no lo llamaban "en otro corral". Lastimosamente, cuándo Silva estaba a punto de sacarle más información aparece la policía Aeronautica, que se lleva a Dufó.

Más tarde, Lituma habla con doña Adriana, quien le cuenta sus preocupaciones, su marido está enfermo pero no quiere buscar atención médica. Podemos deducir que tiene tuberculosis porque comienza a toser con sangre.

Pista n°4: Lituma se dirige a la comisaría y encuentra una nota anónima: "A Palomino Molero, los que lo mataron lo fueron a sacar de la casa de doña Lupe, en Amotape. Ella sabe lo que pasó. Pregúntele."

CAP V
Pista n°5: Doña Lupe les cuenta a pesar de haber sido amenazada por los uniformados que, efectivamente, Palomino fue a Amotape con una muchacha para casarse, pero, a dos días de estadía, dos uniformados se los llevaron.

CAP VI
El teniente Silva y Lituma se dirigen al peñon de los cangrejos en la costa Punta Arena
 para espiar a doña Adriana mientras se baña. La hija de Mindreau: Alicia, los pilla en el acto. Se dirigen a una cafetería para continuar hablando sobre Palomino.

Pista n°6: Alicia les cuenta todo lo sucedido. Palomino se enroló en la Base por ella y además ella es la muchacha con la que fue a Amotape. Alicia llegó a querer a Palomino tuvo relaciones con él y partió para casarse. Efectivamente, ella tenía su guitarra en su cuarto. Incluso, a parte de su declaración, hace a entender que su padre la violaba y luego siempre le pedía perdón de sus actos.

Durante esta conversación, Lituma piensa que Alicia esta chiflado por sus diferentes cambios de humor. Además se da cuenta de su desprecio hacia los cholos, es racista, pero, a pesar de ello, quiso a Palomino.

CAP VII
Silva y Lituma recuperan la guitarra de Molero. Mientras caminan por la costa se encuentran con el coronel Mindreau. El coronel intenta explicar que él es inocente. Les explica que su hija está enferma, cuando era pequeña se la llevó a Estados Unidos y le dijeron que tenía delusions. El coronel les dice que se inventa una nueva realidad (psicosis) y que por esta razón dice muchas mentiras sobre él. Por consecuente, lo culpa de la muerte de su madre y lo acusa de abuso sexual. Silva sin creerse esto lo contradice y Mindreau termina por revelar su crimen. Efectivamente, sabía sobre la muerte de Palomino Molero. Según su declaración, Dufó y sun grupo de subordinados lo mataron. El que estaba detrás de esto era nada menos que el coronel y sus ideologías racistas que no permitían a su hija (blanca) estar con "un simple cholo". La diferencia de clases sociales lo llevo a esta decisión. El coronel al terminar su historia les dice que dejó una nota en la comisaría relatando lo ocurrido. Lituma y Silva se retiran, pero mientras se dirigen a la comisaría oyen un disparo. El coronel se había suicidado. Sin voltear hacia atrás el guardia y el teniente continuaron su camino, pero cuando leyeron la nota se volvieron pálidos, no solamente el coronel se había suicidado pero antes de esto había matado a Alicia, su hija. Silva decide de una vez por todas ir tener relaciones con doña Adriana.

CAP VIII
Lituma y Silva se encontraban almorzando en el local de doña Adriana. Lituma se encuentra muy extrañado que Adriana sea  muy coqueta y Silva muy callado, como si sus roles se hubieran invertido. Adriana le explica que ayer Silva se apareció en su recamára. Adriana un poco loca, se desnudó y lo comenzó a provocar, Silva asustado y humillado por este cambio radical en doña Adriana salió corriendo y no la volvió a molestar.
El local se encuentra muy animado, todo el comensal rumorea que los "peces gordos" nunca fueron descubiertos y que el suicidio del coronel es una mentira. Se rumorean motivos de narcotráfico, de espionaje y que el teniente y el guardia fueron callados con dinero. Como dice el dicho, "Cuando el río suena, es porque piedras trae". Tal vez estos rumores tengan algo de verdad pero nunca se descubrirán. El relato termina con la transferencia de Lituma a Junín.
PD: La secuela de este libro se llama Lituma en los Andes.

DATOS EXTRAS:
La novela menciona numerosas descripciones de Talara y la vida de sus habitantes (tanto humanos como animales...). Varias veces menciona la empresa: International Petroleum Company (empresa de petróleo y gas presente en Perú desde 1914 hasta 1969, actualmente PETROPERÚ reemplaza esta última.)

REVIEW (Sin spoilers):
Como novela policial, esta novela es muy aburrida. Con solo leer la sinopsis ya sabes quien será el culpable. En el capítulo 2 ya sabía quienes eran los involucrados y me imaginaba el desenlace. Cuando llegué al capítulo final y me di cuenta que era exactamente como pensaba, me decepcioné. Esperaba un poco más...
En cambio como novela realista, la novela muestra perfectamente la vida peruana en los años 70, tanto en la descripción como en los temas tratados. Algunos de estos temas aún siguen presentes en el Perú actual. La forma de hablar de los personajes (con jergas) muestra perfectamente cómo se expresa el Perú. Vargas Llosa relata esta novela con temas serios con una pizca de comedia lo cuál vuelve a esta novela policiaca muy fácil de leer (si eres un lector frecuente te durará como mucho dos días. La edición que leí tenía solo aproximademente 160 páginas...)

Temas tratados?
     - Racismo
     - Diferencia de clases sociales (tanto económicamente como en cultura)
     - Corrupción
     - Machismo

martes, 16 de abril de 2019

17/04/19

Dear diary:
It's been long time isn't it?
I fear that I only come to you for telling you my problems. I use to think what my old crush was writing about in his phone. Maybe his feelings too? Ugh that was the worst episode of my life. I want to talk to someone about it. I mean I already forgot him but the consequences just drive me mad and crazy. You know my old best friend right? I dont talk with her in almost a year. Why? Why? Why? Was it my fault? Did she want to lose all contact with me? She did change... but I want to know about her life. I miss her so much and not because I like her romantically but all of those memories are engraved deep into my heart. That time when we flew together to France where very fun, we lived together for 15 days and even if had our quarrels it was fun. I want to cry. Ita been 3 months since I dont speak with her at all. She is happy. I am too but she is missing. How is my best friend dealing with it? Is she having problems? Why no one tried to unite them? Nobody know apart her that I dont speak with Nakima anymore. I keep dreaming about her. My friend sent me some photos of an anime I watched together with her. I fangirled over so many animes with her. I'm making memories with my actual best friend so why is she missing? I know a friend isn't replaceable. But she banned me from her contacts. Im sure that she doesnt want to speak to me. Why are people now so grumpy? I try to make my life better. If you are unhappy dont blame. I try not to. If I do its just a joke or a not so horrible problem. Dont tell me that my life is better than yours you chose it to be like that. I just want to be happy. Share your feelings with me you know? I try to be always shiny to give you some of my happiness. Not to make you jealous. Plz stop. Plz return. I dont like your relationship. He stole you from me. Maybe if I never fell in love with him you would still be by my side. Stupid hormones who wished for a boyfriend. Im happy but is it wrong wanting someone to tell you beautiful words? Is it wrong doing a chirurgy to look better for yourself? Tell me is it wrong?
I remember her voice. I remember her coming to my house crying and begging for forgiveness. Why couldn't we maintain the friendship. Was it all an illusion we built in a moment of treason? It wasn't. I just think he changed it all.

lunes, 11 de febrero de 2019

Attack on Titan 2 (PS4)

THIS IS SPOILER FREE. FEEL FREE TO READ NEWCOMERS.

Review: This game was really fun until I finished it. At first for me the controls were way too difficult to learn but now I master them it is really gratifying when you get the trick. When you finish the game it becomes repetitive because the only objective left is to grind.

Tips for platinum (which I haven't got): This is going to be difficult!
Certainly the most difficult trophy is the gallery completion (Don't repeat my mistakes plz).
1- Don't change the default settings for the OST
2- Always buy a new policy for each mission (since there is a trophy where you need to use 1 000 wings of freedom). I recommend the material.
3- For easier missions focus on material and titan gathering as for diffcult mission only focus on strenght and base building (once you end

Pros:
  • Fun gameplay
  • The game is really loyal to the anime and manga even with character conversations.
  • Even if you haven't watched the anime or read the manga you could certainly play this game but I do not recommend it since these two are better than the game.
Cons:
  •  You need to grind HARD for trophies
  • For the ones who watched the anime or read the manga, the game doesn't give you an extra story. You play as a nameless hero who lost it's family so only the first and last chapter (story mission) are game exclusive. 
  • For the one who played the first game this game will be repetitive since the second game is the first game but upgraded.

11/02/19

Dear Diary:

Happy new year! Sorry for the delay... Like I told you before, I was really busy this January. I even got sick. 2018 was a wonderful year. I feel more confident with myself. I discovered my hate for math thanks to the math academy (where I need to go until the 23rd...). I made new friends! They are great and crazy lol. Not everybody is like in my school. I haven't revised at all my school material. I'm gonna suffer so much later. I forgot everything about economy. Also I haven't learned much in my academy... So much to learn! I changed my plans. I won't be applying anymore to Japan because the math exam is literally impossible for me. I think I will go to Poland, a very cheap option.

Changing the topic...
Code: Realize is certainly a wonderful otome game. I only need one more route to finish it (It's not even romantic anymore but I love that game). KINGDOM HEARTS 3 FINALLY GOT RELEASED THIS JANUARY 29! Sadly, I haven't got it YET. It's finally coming to my hands tomorrow. But, I don't have space in  my hard drive... Which is why I'm playing Code: Realize like crazy...

I lost my reading habit... Maybe because of Code Realize...
Nevertheless, I think I lost some weight thanks to the summer and walking everyday to the academy...

Do yo remember Nakima? (obviously a code name) I lost all contact with her... I think I know why, it is obviously akward to keep talking... I hope she is doing well. My life has changed a lot for the better since depressful people got out of my life...

martes, 25 de diciembre de 2018

25/12/18

Dear Diary:

Merry Christmas! Wow time sure flies. I finally received Code Realize! Yas! I just played 2 routes (Saint Germain who I LOVE and Impey, I really want him as an older brother u.u), I'm trying to obtain  Victor Frankenstein route... let's see how it goes..
Today was really boring... I couldn't find any motivation to play, read, not even watching YouTube! I want to revise some school material but I just got another surgery! Yep, 2 wisdom teeth are gone! Ugh, I have kind of a double chin... I look uglier.

Well if I should tell you about my plans for 2019... I want to get a scholarship in Japan so I signed up for a math academy near me. I have to do a math test and since my school math is shit... I need to put in more effort...
I'm also studying for the IELTS hopefully I get a good score. I'm fluent in English but I'm still worried. What should i say in the interview? Hey! I wanna go to Japan because I love the language and their games! Which is true... but not a valid point... You see... If I go there my dream job would be to work in a game company. Nevertheless they want me to make the relationship between Japan and my country better. Which I can't do anything because I will not become a diplomatic. And because Peru has a horrible culture. Ugh why can't this country become like Japan?

jueves, 13 de diciembre de 2018

Office Lovers Review (Unfinished)



 
Published: 7th August 2016
Get it on: Steam

About: The MC (whatever name you think about) is an employee at a major cosmetics company who got selected to be a member of a team in charge of developing a new product. Yes.. Nothing else. Don't expect much of this game.
Tips: Tbh you don't need an strategy because you can save at anytime and see if the option you sleected
My review: Repetitive music. You keep hearing a horrible elevator music and for the romance scene a cringy OST.
Worth Buying?: Lol no, pay attention to the reviews


Opinion:
I bought this game on discount thanks to Steam. I read the comments about this company "Dogenzaka Labs" saying that their games were pretty sexual. Nevertheless, I decided to give it a try. And so I am here. I should have heard the reviews...

The routes: (Oh no)

So I started the game with Mahiro (the red haired guy), he looked pretty handsome and his description "But it turns out that when it comes to love, he takes the offensive... and his target is you" made me wonder how was going to be his story. Well, nothing. He is just like "You are mine" (insert sexy unexistant voice). You know... that only made me feel uncomfortable. I'm not a posession.
Spoilers (if you ever plan on playing this shitty game that is):
The story is abou him being a spy of the company. Nothing else. And all the story revolves about MC trying to believe him.

Thank you, next. 

Backstage Pass (Unfinished)

Review (Unfinished)

Great game! But... it can get tedious at times...

Routes I finished (in order):

Matthew: I love boys with ling hair, that's why I started with him. A model who is really shy.
Nicole: The Golden Princess, or Matt's little sister lol. This girl was really funny but sometimes her voice acting was a little unbearable, though I have to admit it goes really well with her character.
Alvin: The nerd and the geek.
Adam: In process

martes, 11 de diciembre de 2018

11/12/2018

Dear Diary:

Lately I've been feeling really lonely... I'm skipping classes now because we really don't work at the end of the year... My classmates don't want to work except me... Of course I can't tell them this. I feel bad for my teachers. I can't stand some people now. This sunday I went out with my best friend and her boyfriend (yeah bad choice I know) she was just hugging him all the time but at least his boyfriend talked with me...

Ugh I have a really bad feeling that my friend who dates my ex crush will end up pregnant... (we have 17 but this is Peru not USA). Man I don't know what to do with her, she keeps talking about abortion but I'm too scared too actually ask her if she had sex with her boyfriend. Lately she's been saying things like: "I hate menstruation but this time I really want it" or "I read somewhere that pineapple causes abortion so I've been eating it non stop". Ugh...

I think my order from USA will arrive the 20th.. It's just a feeling but I don't want to wait too much.

I've been downloading games but some time later I get bored from those games or I get nauseos from looking at the screen. The only thing that doesn't make me feel that way is being on my cellphone or playing otome games....
Maybe It's the sun.

I'm feeling fat. I don't want to do sports I get too embarrassed of being so bad. I do my all but I can't. I'm not even obese to have these problems, I'm actually pretty thin. Except my belly. Ugh.

I've been wanting to continue my self studies with german but right now there is no motivation at all truly...

viernes, 30 de noviembre de 2018

02/11/16

Dear diary:

Me writing back the 29 of november but lil' me forgot to publish:

I'm really looking forward to my delivery. I asked my mom to buy from the USA. Code realize is coming! Shin megami tensei IV too!
Man, I've been really mad because in school we don't do anything. We just watch movies. And then they get mad. Why do we have school if we only go to do nothing.

The 29 of november, I finished shingeki no kyojin. It's so good! I have two hours of free time in my school so I'll read there meanwhile.

Ok hello again It's me fron the present
Ok so I've been downloading and playing games like princess maker 2 refine and long live the queen. I love this game called recettear, It's an item shop game.
I finished all the games I wanted to play for the ps4 so now I'm just at the lookout for good fun games.

I want to make this blog like a journal of my achievements and thoughts that's why I need to put more effort. I mean no one put their life into a blog so why not.

lunes, 26 de noviembre de 2018

26/11/2018

Dear Diary:

Damn, no I can't forget about you. I made a promise to myself to keep everything that happens in my life in here. Ok, so where do I start?

Remember my BAC exams? I really don't want to talk about them... But, I have no other choice. I'm so happy to finally end with them! My last exam was the 21. I will have no more french! No more science! So happy! So fulfilled? I think I did pretty well on them except from the oral. Where I had a text I hadn't studied well... Talk about bad luck... At least I answered the questions.... Still, I feel so mad thinking that I did worse than my classmates. I have a 15.18. 1 point less... I'm doomed. I'm kinda scared of the next year. Mostly because of physical education. I was never good. And doing it in front of others made me depressed... This was a beautiful but horrible year. I'm glad my friend is with my ex crush though... She went to his pre prom (yeah that exists....). Will I ever be able to have a boyfriend? To marry? I wonder. That thought is stuck in my 17 year old mind.

Lately, I left reading because of gaming.... I'm reading not a very interesting book... Maybe that's why. From the 21st until today I had like a long weekend... with any homework. It was so refreshing

I got a lot better at drawing also... Don't really know how. But I feel accomplished. Now that I have time, I'm trying to motivate myself to get better at Japanese. I'm stuck with B+ grades... I really want to go to Japan. I want to meet new people in my future work... but... I don't even know if I'll make it there with good grades. I wanna give my best but finding motivation is really difficult.

You know? When I was little I really wanted to become a famous gamer like Pewdiepie or IHasCupquake... But, my motion sickness is getting worse... Oh! I forgot to tell you! I now have glasses! Yep, I'm blind now lol. I need to use them permanently but I'm scared of ruining my nose. It is too heavy for me. It's difficult...

Tomorrow, I have classes, but only from 8 to 10. Wow.

OHHHHHH. SHIN MEGAMI TENSEI AND CODE REALIZE ARE COMING IN 18 DAYS. I made an online purchase so now I just have to wait. I've been waiting so long to find another good otome game like Cinderella Phenomenon... NAMELESS. God, I can't forget them. I' obsessed hearing those otome tracks lol.

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Dear blog So these days have been horrible. A whole week without an answer to an email made  me think everyday about suicide great. Serious...