26/11/2018

Dear Diary:

Damn, no I can't forget about you. I made a promise to myself to keep everything that happens in my life in here. Ok, so where do I start?

Remember my BAC exams? I really don't want to talk about them... But, I have no other choice. I'm so happy to finally end with them! My last exam was the 21. I will have no more french! No more science! So happy! So fulfilled? I think I did pretty well on them except from the oral. Where I had a text I hadn't studied well... Talk about bad luck... At least I answered the questions.... Still, I feel so mad thinking that I did worse than my classmates. I have a 15.18. 1 point less... I'm doomed. I'm kinda scared of the next year. Mostly because of physical education. I was never good. And doing it in front of others made me depressed... This was a beautiful but horrible year. I'm glad my friend is with my ex crush though... She went to his pre prom (yeah that exists....). Will I ever be able to have a boyfriend? To marry? I wonder. That thought is stuck in my 17 year old mind.

Lately, I left reading because of gaming.... I'm reading not a very interesting book... Maybe that's why. From the 21st until today I had like a long weekend... with any homework. It was so refreshing

I got a lot better at drawing also... Don't really know how. But I feel accomplished. Now that I have time, I'm trying to motivate myself to get better at Japanese. I'm stuck with B+ grades... I really want to go to Japan. I want to meet new people in my future work... but... I don't even know if I'll make it there with good grades. I wanna give my best but finding motivation is really difficult.

You know? When I was little I really wanted to become a famous gamer like Pewdiepie or IHasCupquake... But, my motion sickness is getting worse... Oh! I forgot to tell you! I now have glasses! Yep, I'm blind now lol. I need to use them permanently but I'm scared of ruining my nose. It is too heavy for me. It's difficult...

Tomorrow, I have classes, but only from 8 to 10. Wow.

OHHHHHH. SHIN MEGAMI TENSEI AND CODE REALIZE ARE COMING IN 18 DAYS. I made an online purchase so now I just have to wait. I've been waiting so long to find another good otome game like Cinderella Phenomenon... NAMELESS. God, I can't forget them. I' obsessed hearing those otome tracks lol.