Idk

Idk what I plan to do with this blog anymore. Before, I relieved my stress of school but I don't go to school anymore so I'm depressed and with lots of anxiety. Everyday I wish I could reset my life from when I was a kid and choose another school. I think this way I could have had more friends and lived a peaceful normal life. Maybe wishing to go to Japan was a mistake? They aren't responding.... I'm stressed. I want to make new friends but I don't have anyone anymore. I don't get out often so I don't know what to do. I wonder how my family is so chill about it. The only thing I do now is watch anime. I even lost my interest in gaming somehow. I lost interest in everything I loved. That's depression right? I'm doubting if I shoul study international business. I mean I don't even look good in a suit but my mother says otherwise. I want to study a simple career and discover by myself what I want to do while I'm alive but if life had to end like that I wouldn't mind at all you know.