11/12/2018

Dear Diary:

Lately I've been feeling really lonely... I'm skipping classes now because we really don't work at the end of the year... My classmates don't want to work except me... Of course I can't tell them this. I feel bad for my teachers. I can't stand some people now. This sunday I went out with my best friend and her boyfriend (yeah bad choice I know) she was just hugging him all the time but at least his boyfriend talked with me...

Ugh I have a really bad feeling that my friend who dates my ex crush will end up pregnant... (we have 17 but this is Peru not USA). Man I don't know what to do with her, she keeps talking about abortion but I'm too scared too actually ask her if she had sex with her boyfriend. Lately she's been saying things like: "I hate menstruation but this time I really want it" or "I read somewhere that pineapple causes abortion so I've been eating it non stop". Ugh...

I think my order from USA will arrive the 20th.. It's just a feeling but I don't want to wait too much.

I've been downloading games but some time later I get bored from those games or I get nauseos from looking at the screen. The only thing that doesn't make me feel that way is being on my cellphone or playing otome games....
Maybe It's the sun.

I'm feeling fat. I don't want to do sports I get too embarrassed of being so bad. I do my all but I can't. I'm not even obese to have these problems, I'm actually pretty thin. Except my belly. Ugh.

I've been wanting to continue my self studies with german but right now there is no motivation at all truly...