18/08/18

Dear diary,

Thursday I went to the orthodontist. Until today it hurts but it bearable. 

Yesterday I had a 15 year old party, I was hooping my dress was not too much shine or different than the rest but I hoped It was good enough for the party. I saw my other friends dresses and they were so simple while mine drawed more attention. I felt so akward I hated everything. I need to add two people from my prom were in that party somehow. I felt ridiculous. At least my friedns comforted me. I told my mother that I felt uncomfortable but she just made me feel worse. All day I kept thinking about that. Note to myself and you. If you dont like to dance please never go to parties. I told myself that if there was alcohol I would drink it because this year was full of shit so I hoped it would make me feel better. My friend drank a cup but I didn't want to drink it at the moment because it smelled so awful. I will be forced to drink thay shit when I'm older maybe because of work but I think I won't drink alcohol unless I'm forced. Today I just procastinated I don't even know how. It's already 21:10 and I need to study a lot and do canvas. I just hope those two classmates remember me from the party. Why I cannot tell anything happy in here? Well, tomorrow I'll go out to see Cristopher Robin. I feel like a child lol. I should grow up a little I feel out of place even if I'm happy. The society doesn't like me if I'm inmature. I won't get a boyfriend if I'm inmature. I wanna know how it is. I just need a bit of love but true love. I feel so complicated saying things like this.
           It must be the hormones :v

I finally finished reading Omertà by Mario Puzo, even though I enjoyed it at first, the story turned up to pass so quickly with so many things going on or sometimes becoming boring with a dialogue of two characters plotting their next plan. There were still some surprises that made me change my face. I will talk more about this in my post of book review.