09/08/18

Dear diary:

Hey! Today was my birthday... it was horrible you know? Well almost.

Why horrible you may ask. Well my hopes and dreams of being good in french were crushed. Today I had 3 exams. Just great. Today was a long day. 

First of all, the exam of that book I was reading before and I couldn't finish called Les Liaisons dangereuses. I loved that book but I just couldn't finish it. Ugh, I JUST remembered I have to return to the library Tartuffe and Candide. Don't get me wrong, I love books, but I couldn't finish any of them. I feel so down today, that the reason why I write you. I was feeling so responsible this days mostly with socialisation homework. I'm doubting what I want to study again. I think I'm not good enough. Everything I do is not good enough. A 15 is considered bad for the mother of a friend. My friends in the "filière scientifique" are always studying. I think who am I doesn't truly like to become a person who likes to study. I was seeing some videos of Ruby Granger and I got really pumped up for studying today but everything crumbled when the exam was way too specific and my bac blanc of french turned out to be "luck" as my teacher calls it. I feel so miserable, so, so miserable. 

Finally, the tip of the icerberg... It was training for the TPE the same teacher told me: "You need to learn french", so I just feel I'm a good for nothing. I at least want to become good on osu.

Well I don't want to talk anymore about that I just played osu and it is 8:34. I'll just read a bit and tomorrow I'll study for the exam.