24/07/18

Somehow after being really tired yesterday I woke up at 4 o'clock and decided to study some german and read a little, VERY LITTLE. When I was playing nameless my mom entered my room and saw Yuri shirtless, it was super embarrassing but she didn't say anything. At that moment I wanted to die of embarrassement, Red's route gives you the feeeeels, I wanted to cry several times. After playing, I had to take some x-rays for my brackets, hopefully everything is alright... I really want to get them this thursday, I read a bit waiting but the book was in french so I couldn't focus. Everything written in french reminds me of school... I haven't done anything I'm panicking. I finally got a haircut, I look prettier. I'm really surprised my self esteem is great right now. At 4 pm I went to my best friend's house, it was really relaxing and funny. She told me that a friend of mine who I thought had a boyfriend likes someone else(? I really don't get her... First of all, how does she know so many guys? I just know 5 guys lol. Sometimes I think it's a waste of time but it really is cute when you get to know someone who cares about you and just wants to hug you... I'm playing too many otome games and a lot of friends are now in a relationship, maybe that's why I'm like this. I never had a boyfriend before not even my first kiss but I truly feel that I'm tired of love, it's just too difficult and I'm tired of trying. Maybe my rhinoplasty and brackets will help but I keep comparing with others. I'm just never happy with myself. Brackets please come this thursday!