30/07/18

Dear diary:

I feel I'm making a countdown to the end of my life. So much homework I haven't done... It's unfair. I want to learn so many things BUT NOT THINGS LIKE LITERATURE, DISCRIMINATION AND THOSE THINGS.

Yesterday I put a message in my whatsapp status saying: "if I bother you telling you my life then please don't answer this status" only 4 people answered... It's really sad considering I had 30 contacts.  It made me think what am I thinking telling my life to everyone. One was my best friend, well obviously I love her. She is really funny, I'm really glad she finally found someone who loves her back. I don't talk much with her boyfriend but he is a good person. The next one was a friend who you could consider she "betrayed" me. So things may be a little awkward. Well at least for me. But she came crying to me even if the motive wasn't I guess a betrayal. And the other two were people I don't talk much: the boyfriend of my best friend and a friend of a really funny friend of mine lol. *sigh*
I'm just learning that I really don't have friends. I just have two friends and the others are just people I hang up with who like me as a person. But they don't care about my well being or something like that...

So anyways... enough of the sad text that's why I'll end up telling more things here. I would really like to put images like my whatsapp status. I considered even to have twitter account or instagram. But I discovered that sometimes that account is linked to your cellphone number. I don't want my "friends" to know  about this blog. I don't even know why I'm doing this. I started this as a form to express myself and maybe others could think the same things as me, maybe they are on the same situation. I also don't think as writing the whole thing in a notebook where my mother could find it. Well at least I write in english...

Well the point is that I'll stop with whatsapp status... It's for my own good I guess also because I have the habit of telling weird anecdotes that they don't even appreciate....

I thought of doing some modifications to this diary. Yes I'll call it a diary now. I already got into the habit of writing every single day so I'll just name it, just like Anna Frank (but not Kitty that is her name of her diary lol). I think she is a huge inspiration of mine. I'm glad I can tell you these things without me being scared of being judged because I think you'll understand every single thing I tell you. I have huge hopes of this diary I want it to make it a little bit famous. Of course I'll work hard to give you more pages of recommendations, reviews and those things. When I start university I'll do a page only dedicated to international business and language made by none other than a student. I don't know why adults talk in such a complicated language. I feel so motivated today. I'll also make another blogger application because here... I cannot do much. I just write as If I was on notes.

This blog is a way of starting a new life when I have views I'll think of it as entering a society of new people.

YOU KNOW WHAT I DID TODAY? NOTHING. I JUST DID ECONOMY HOMEWORK, ONLY THAT, AND I HAVE A LOT MORE HAHAHAHAHHAHA I'M FALLING INTO INSANITY KILL ME